#1 My Parents

My parents are pretty amazing people...
They have both taught me so much, specially on ways I look at the world and the people around me. So, as I sit down to write, it only makes sense to open this project w them. (I will later go into depth about them individually) These two people have both shaped me and my moral code which majority is to be good to people, to treat them and the things in my life the way I would like to be treated as well as looked at.

My dad told me “99% of the world will never do anything important, it is your job to try and be happy and know the way you talk and interact w people was the ability to change them. So, be good to them.” As I have had a lot of time to think about this statement, I have noticed that this is true. You never know in meeting someone whether it is a min interaction in which you will probably never meet again, to someone that you see regularly. Everyone has the ability to change the way we look at the world. So why not make it better, or challenging or question what we are doing and who we are doing it with.

My mom has told me “You will be lucky if you are able to go through life and have 1 to 3 really good friends that you will know through you life.” As sad as that sounds, I have found that you really are lucky if you can have even that. As people, we change so much, we go through different seasons of life and as we go through them we are lucky if we can bring others with us. Every relationship is work... It’s not just the romantic ones, to really be a friend and be there, it takes effort on both parties; calling, writing, thinking about them and reaching out to show that you care and are interested.

After my back surgery, I got a wide awakening. I was moving at the speed of light going out meeting people, feeling important just because I could hype a crowd, that I was the “Fun one” but the truth is... I’m just like everyone else trying to make it in the world and to find some sort of happiness. Just because people knew my name and saw me as a fun loving, wild individual doesn’t mean that I don’t have layers and that underneath it all I am hurt and broken like the rest of us, just wanting to fit in and enjoy what is around me. I found out who my real friends were, the ones who came around, who continued to challenge me and to push me so that even though I was falling apart, almost going blind, relearning how to walk and cursing the sky at times that I could find a way to push back and it is through those people that I have found my way back to the ground I am walking on.

So, here’s what I have to tell you about people. Enjoy the FU*K out of them while they’re around, do what makes you happy, tell them how you feel because you don’t know if this is the first or last time you will get to have an experience with them. People are both good and bad, try to stick with the good ones and letting go of the sour and bitter ones. In life, if you have a chance to fly, take it and if the people around us are suppose to go along for the ride they will. Enjoy your “seasons” and know that out there in the world, someone is thinking of you from time to time, make that thought one worth remembering.

Momboroni and Papa Bear, thank you for wanting me to reach the stars even if it is in my own weird unconventional kind of way. I am trying the best that I know how and with out you and your support, I would have sank like the Titanic on that cold April night. Words will never be able to formulate how and what I feel for you both but I will keep trying.

With All My Love and Best Wishes,
Loren


Today:
Song: Chumbawamba - Tubthumping
Quote of the Day: "We touch other people's lives just by existing." - JK Rowling
Fav Food Consumed Today: Pineapple
Craving: Steak and Mash Potatoes
Drinking: White Cherry Gatorade
Random Fact: The first CD my dad bought and listened w my brother and me was Chumbawamba. I was in either 3rd or 4th grade and we were visiting my grandparents in NC. We must have danced to Tubthumping at least 20 times in a row! So here's to "Kissing" the night away because "Pissing" just isn't as appropriate!